Life

A tribute to my idol

I’ve often been asked the question regarding a roll model or idol that i might have, and to be honest there has only been one, one that i absolutely adore in every way possible and wish and aspire to be a fraction of the person they are. After 25 years of watching and admiring, i still continue to be amazed.

This tribute is for my fantastic mother!

Recently unfortunately she hasn’t been very well, and earlier this week was admitted to hospital, she stayed over night and well, things are still uncertain, but we wait and see and hope.

But it’s at moments like these that sometimes shake the foundations of your current worldly perception, suddenly a new prospective arises and at least a melancholic period, where you reminisce about the past and all that it held.

My mum had me at a relatively young age when she was at university, and alas it wasn’t somewhere for a kid to grow up, even though i was in my dad’s parent’s care, she was always coming to see, teach, and spend as much time as she can with me. Until she finished university, she then took me and gave me more loving than any words can ever experience, a motherly love is truly one unlike any other.

I am the man i am due to her, and her alone. She taught me morals, she taught me about people, about courtesy and generally living life, and living it well. Through all the years she has never stopped working so hard for myself and then for the family she built up, to her and her alone the thanks goes for having 4 wonderful kids. All of which have a charm, charisma that has rubbed of from her.

I cannot stress how hard she works, both a professionally and for the family to ensure that we are all getting the best and more that she can give. Sometimes it’s far far too easy to take our parents for granted, they’re there and we know that, but every now and then, we need to give back, let them know we love them, we adore them, respect them and thank them for a life time of work they put in to us.

I wish, and i aspire to be the fraction of the person that she is, my whole life my one true goal is to make her happy, to make her a a fraction happy of the happiness she has managed to inject into my life!

It’s funny as i look back through the times in my life when I’ve been the young juvenile idiot that has fucked up, the first thought ever is “how am i going to tell my mum”, not because she wouldn’t understand, because…she always will, she will support me to the end, but it it the fear of disappointing! I am always embarrassed, and often more upset with myself if i upset her. For those young stupid times i am so sorry, but i truly admire her style in being able to both help me in any situation i ever got my self into, and also show me the ways to do things well and to do them right without being intrusive or offensive.

The amazing care never stops at her immediate family, it goes far and wide to anyone who has had the privilege of being caressed by her presence.

So to my idol, to my mother, i would say that to you i look up to, you made me the man i am, i admire you, love you and cherish every moment that i have had the privilege to be with you.